Nur Zakuan
writing to a non-audience pleases me.
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my boss aka my hero just whispered something that has gotten me abit....
shell shocked, to say the least
in a VERY VERY VERY GREAT way :))))))))))
but, lest i get overly optimistic or happy about anything, because it is hardly anything yet
BUT STILL
it is something to me
brag, i do not
but im genuinely happy because i think...
i did well :)
they say that you are most often, your worst critic
i do agree
but sometimes, u gota be happy cos bloody hell, i worked for it
and OMG
someone noticed
*correction
some people, some very important people, those u usually only know in name from those organisational charts they give you at onboarding
ok. i gotta stop grinnin now
people are gona think im some sorta cheshire cat at the rate im going
on a another note
its all around sadness & a certain kinda gloom in the air today
for today....
is the last day in Shell for alotta folks around here
tomorrow.. is the start of a new era
something that has been in the works from before i even stepped foot in here
n now it's finally happening
surreal indeed.. but very real
alas, we've all had our share of great moments
some of which, were on sat nite at our 'final' annual dinner
as a full OneIT Community
*sigh*
my IT dumb-ness , that is
mom calls me at work today
"Nur.. can u please print something out for me,duno why, cannot seem to print at home"
"ya.. ok. Send to me la "
"Ya, I sent an email to your personal add"
10 mins later
"Mom, which doc is it la? I can't see it"
"I typed it in Microsoft office"
OMG. then it occured to me...
my dearest mother...
had typed a doc out in Word.. in our HOME pc
and wants me to somehow print it out.. at the office
in cyberjaya
:)))))))
she had me in stitches for the next 5 mins
bianca & juliana too
the apple never falls far from the tree, eh?
a lot can happena LOOOOOOOOOOOOOT can happen, i repeatso much so.. that im practically numbextreme ups & then.. sudden downsi feel like im on that damned amusement park ridethe one that lifts u up.. n suddenly drops u, only to bring up againand drop you again.. just as fasti got something in the mail todayit got me grinnin from ear to earall red faced in my cubiclethen.. 15 mins lateri get other newsjob relatedboss asked me again... if i was opento relocating...........i said YES
if only i didnt feel so heavy when i jump
if only i didnt feel like i wana die when i try to stretch
if only i could lift my legs THAT high again
if only i had all that energy again
my god
5 yrs earlier. and you would never have caught me saying such things
its amazing how much can change in the course of a few years.
no wait.
months
8 kilos
i fuck you not
*cue to cry
its no wonder i still dont have a dress for this saturday's annual dinner
"fatty fatty bom bom..."
to questions i already know
why do we still do what we know to be wrong.
things we know we shouldn't be doing.
and still find the greatest pleasure in doing it.
would we enjoy it as much if it weren't wrong?
God never gives us anything too much for us to handle
God..I hope that is true
there are a few people who are in my thoughts as i prepare to lay this aching mess on my lumpy bed
and to them id like to say
i care. and that.... you are not alone.
im feeling it too...
why is it only when something majorly drastic happens that people wake up & smell the roses?an uncle just passed away. JUST. very suddenly as well. i was not close to him, BUT.. still. a heart attack, so they tell me. one minute they're all fine & with us, the next.. they're gone.. foreverfuckwhy do we take all we have for granted? why do we want a mile when given an inch?why are we never satisfied? do not quote some Maslow's hierarchy of needs shit to me.life. live it. while we still have it.n for fucks sake. live it well.
rest in peace. say hi to dad for me
omg. time.to.freak.out.IT dungu on the line.iv just been made into some website's webmaster.gaaahhhhh!!!!i don't even know how to bloody handle this blog here, and u want me to handle an official company-sort-of website. Jesus Christ.Ooh wee.. learning opportunityRIGHTMy god. Time to get an IT savvy aka geeky personal 'friend' to help me with this. any takers?
you've been in an IT company for too long when...
you have solitary lunches and that is OK
during that solitary lunch you hear a lame joke
it goes
"... buy one server,get one free..."
group bursts into neverending laughter
-_-
my.god.
this is the world i live in.
90 days to find a new position
and.. iv got a telecon in 15 mins
boss just tells me to find a meeting room
in 15 mins
goddammit. i dont even have 15 mins to blog
no wonder i got sick yesterday
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lay my paintball marker
as if to make me any less paranoid
everyday is a rollercoaster
am i the only one screaming?
