Nur Zakuan
writing to a non-audience pleases me.
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godddammiti hate my nosei can never sneeze less than 3 times in a rowone *ah chooon im pretty much immobilised for the next 30 secscos they just keep on comingits like a buy one, get 3 free promo saleughi had these friends who would constantly speak of gettin new nosesor nicer lipsbigger eyesthe worksfor cosmetic reasons of courseme?i want a new nosefor purely functional reasonsmine rosah sudah laishhhoh.. n btwim off to kuching in 5 hours :D teeheeeeeee!meowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww meowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwhere i come
i've melt-ed*sighhhh*i received another card in the mail again todayn it couldn't have come at a better timemonday.7th july.3pm.nur = super moody.stoned.tired.nervousmonday.7th july.3:15pmnur = in disbelief. a grinning idiot (as diana likes to put it).turned to mushi don't know how u do itbut... uv caught my attentionim impressedim almost your'salmost..
THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOUu dont often see me mention the Almighty's name in my blogor any of my writing, per seit's not that I am not grateful for all his blessings bestowed upon meI just... am not the outwardly spiritual type But.. that e-mail I received this morningwarrants my dismissal of my usual non-display of spirituality:))))))sometimes, i feel like i don't know what i did , or rather...i feel i didn't do enough to deserve opportunities of this magnitude to another, it may be just.. another opportunitybut for me..it means a GREAT GREAT deali cannotscrewthisupto my parents,i will make you proudi can only hope you are smilingfrom up abovei'm smiling back :) 
"but you always know what to say. ..or what to do"perhaps i do.. sometimesbut now.. i.just.dont.what is right? what is wrong?what to do? what not to do?how to feel? how not to feel?what to think? what not to think?all remain unanswered. they say, time will tellbut it seems that, with time, the questions just seem to pile upcomplicating matters even more u know that feelingwhere ur chest tightensn it's difficult to breathen your heart feels physically heavyyeah that oneits happeningright now ...
is gonna become my new favourite line at work
for difficult people
for primadonnas
for annoying people
with annoying questions
for when im malas to layan
for just about everyone and everything
thanks 'boss' (my nick for someone who's not my boss)
so ur not so straightlaced after all :P
haha
me.miss panic-era,'boss' jules