Nur Zakuan
writing to a non-audience pleases me.
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i feel like my eyes & nose are about to fall offthe dust.. its killing meim finally doing itcleaning my room againafter a 6 month long break from the last closet clean upiv taken to doin it myselfi need to learn how to throw more things outn stop being such a sentimental hoarderw clothes its easierGod save my soul when it comes to the rubbish on my shelves & study tableeeps!
gotobeachits crazyits like this magnetic pullits saying "nur.. come to me..."said the beachwill plotwill go
when?
strangely enough
paying off my credit card bill
my car loan
transferring cash to my savings
doing something i had control over
made it better
try it
i am a pendulum.
no its not fun.
cos i cant control the swinging.
but i know who can.
sometimes the hardest thing to do is
to do nothing
that magic 8 ballyes yes, laugh on i am a kidand im kid enough to admit it*bleah*but seriously.. i asked it the same question 3 times...Twice it said "It points to Yes'"and the third time.. it said "It is certain"what's a fool like me to think?haihat least i know im not alonei know 2 other people who've done the same:P 
some people just like to be pushy n show off their powder just cos they can.
cheh!
well, u do not scare me woman. i now know that bigger paycheques do not equate more tact :)
on another note, im just so.. tired / lazy.
sittin at home, watching tv was the best way to spend my wednesday evening.
i should do that more.
yes.
as for tonite. its home again for more tv n perhaps some photo uploading to keep that promise i made to lil mrs ants before she fidgets her not so scrawny ass off
i think i'll have dinner alone to boot
n if im feeling ambitious, i just might clean my room
oh nur. what has come over you?
i was just having a conversation with someone on how we always manage to find a piece of work, be it literary, musical or otherwise, that totally befits our current state of mind. like that book that's been on your night table collecting dust & losing colour on its coverbecause the time for it to be read just has not come yet..or the song on the radio when you've been flippin stations, that jumps out at you on your way back from work..or that headline you read as you surf aimlessly online, on a friday afternoon.. such as this..say what?being the curious cat that i am.. *click*...today i learnt that any one bird weighing heavier than 4 pounds can bring a big metal bird, more than 20 times its size.. down.its strange.. but as i read this i found myself thinking, yeah.. why not?i thought of ...david & goliath. i said in my last post, how it was the lil things mean the most. the lil things can make me smile. what i failed to mention was how.. the lil things can also cause the big things.. to failscary.. but truelittle things count.. more than you realisewho knew that..every breath u take - the police, was most likely a stalker song, rather than an innocent love song.born in the usa - bruce springsteen, wasn't really patrotic at alllosing my religion - r.e.m., has nothing to do with religionthen again, i hardly ever listen to lyrics, so i sure as hell didnt knowbut what did strike a chord was that tis often that things u see/hear get misinterpreted.if the tonsa people who have heard these songs never got it, what makes u think that that small group, or that one person gets what u mean to convey half the time?u know what.. maybe they do, maybe they don'tor maybe.. they just aren't ready tou might think i'm not ready to understandbut maybe i am.. if u gave me the chance toand maybe i already dopatience is a virtue. a virtue i must learn.
tis the lil things that mattertis the lil things that mean the mostandtis the lil things that make me smileokla. also this cos its so fckin hilariousi like laughin to myself in my cubiclei do it all the timethese are also some of the things i've heard recentlyi should start wearin diapers soonthey make me laugh till i wana peeFee - "do u need Mira all the time? I can be your oxygen too"Cherry Boy being romantic to Cherry Girl - "You make me bladder weak. You're my little GRO"Davey - "I had so much fun last nite. I met this random girl at barsonic who kept on feeding me her jugs"Mama Far - "If I turn it on a 100%, no man can resist me"Cherry Boy to Limau - "You like beans" Limau's reply - "NO, they just happen to fall onto my spoon"Davey again - "Running 10km is like gettin a tattoo. U just gotta suck up the pain sometimes"Puppy - "Saying 'rice', is like saying 'nice' for Asians"oh weirdos how i adore theeu make me feel....almost normal
back to last yearno, this is not one of those 'reflections on 2008' postsokla.. a bit, but not quitei was readin thru some of my older posts. not so old even... dated oct 2008a mere 3 months ago?some of what happened seemed a long time ago, yetsome felt it was just last weeksome i can barely recalllast nite was spent with some old, dear friendsthe kind u can spend all nite with ROFLMAO and goin red in the face with just reminiscingthe silly things we used to do. the stories. ones that have been retold over n over again. n ones conveniently forgotten. 6 years later1 is married1 is doing her bar1 is getting her masters & well on her way to getting married1 is really turnin into an uncleand then...theres mewonder what i will say at this time next yearand who else might be there amongst us*cue for ants to get that 1 week overdue 'birds & the bees' talk from her mom/dad - as prescripted by odio - "so u guys will know what you are doin"i miss odio with an olike.. a lot lot lot
fuckin spam mails in the span of 6 days
what
the
fuck
?!
i have no clue how my email add ended up on some melayu yahoo group
i got 970 fuckin emails
do u have any idea how many time i had to click delete all on one page?!!?!
i know its mean but seriously
no wonder the malays have a reputation for being fckin lazy
all they bloody do at work is reply to absolute bullshit group notice boards
o_0