Nur Zakuan
writing to a non-audience pleases me.
August 2007 September 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009
the only thing that saved me on a monday because some people really are that stupidthanks alfy boy for opening our eyes to this super awesome world of fail-ness now if only we caught that dude on the lazy boy yesterdaythe dude practically flipped the lazy boy over buahahahahahhharoffel roffel roffel
we did however manage to catch this...
LOLOLOLOLOLOL
see alfy. we told u your car would be safe in front of adrian's house*grins*
as i half limped my way to the lift for lunch today
thru that freezer of a CBJ 2R
a thought struck me
u know when people say
fate only takes u halfway
u gota work the other half yourself ...
as opposed to
u can only do so much
u gota leave the rest up to God.. have faith...
that sorta thing
well in a way iv always been more type 1
im a do-er
i cant bloody sit still
so for me to NOT do anything
is really the challenge
perhaps this is the lesson to be learnt
to have faith
T for try
T for tougher than it looks
"oi.. enough la. ur puttin on too much"
no but seriously.. im not
they are so dry, i can use half a tube a day ... but i wont
ironically enough, iv never been one to slap it on very often
they've always been kinda dry, but nothing like this!
so iv gone from zero to hero
u may call me...
captain vaseline
*slideeeeeeee*
uhuhit was only amusing to see that fat dude dance in the back
so iv been on these pills for close to 3 weeks nowim not expecting some overnight miracle but the side effects sure aren't shy, thats fer shureread: dry lips to rival an autumn leafpotent pills = woohoo side effectspart n parcel hey?plus, to each her own to some - dry skin/lipsto some - nauseato some - loss of appetiteto some - depressionwho is to say which amongst this attractive menu of ailments i should be lucky enough to enjoy?im starting to wonderif my decreasing appetite as opposed to my increasing fatigue has anything to do with these lil purple pills that i be downingthen again.. its always easy to blame it on the drugsfor all i know. its just mehah
#$%^&*(~!
my. back. hurts. like. a . fckin. bitch.ugh.
the only thing im capable of thinking of is
how in the bloody hell do i alleviate this pain?
tempur mattress
i dream of u
is all im tryin to dou know how it feels when ur just THAT tiredbreathing alone seems like a great effortrandom colleague next to lift: "so Nur.. how are you?"*bleah* nur: "eh? okla. just exhausted tho. everythings moving so fast. am struggling to catch my breath" random colleague again: "wah.. that bad ar?"*still bleah* nur: "nah, i wouldn't say its bad. its good.. just very tiring is all"correction - very.. very ..tiringdon't get me wrong thoughi love being busyidle hands + idle minds = bad news for hyperactive person such as ibut even i do need a break after a whilelike now...its been non-stop for weeks nowand just when i think"yeah.. next week should be better"then... something else pops upif its not work, its other new projects, or reconnecting with old friends, or keepin my psychotic exercise regime intactiv said it before n i'll say it againwhy do i do this to myself?oh but u know whatstrangely enoughits times like these that i feel most alivethe contradictionsthe ironiesall at onceone word - balancedear god i think im runnin up a fever
holy. mother. of. god. or.. of mine for that matter...nooooooooooooooomom: eh, i need your help la. can u help me set up a facebook account? nur: o_0 . huh? why?mom : nola, so i can check nisa's photos out & since my friends have been telling me about it and sending me stuff. apparently i gota get an account in order to seenur: ... mom: ya, (she goes on about how another friend offered to help her set it up... ) nur: *panic panic nowwww*mom: so yeah, i might as well get u to do it for me. besides, u know all my account names & passwords anyway aha! on the slightly bright side. if i do set up an account for her. i could periodically log into her account n make sure that none of my bizness gets shown there n i will know exactly what portions she can see, and what she can't...of course.. in an ideal world, all parents wouldn't have any business being even slightly aware of the existence of facebook, much less have their own accounts. YA SURE.pfft!such talk of the non-existent shall not continue henceforth...taking a shitty situation n making the best outa it.trying to see the good in everything.looking on the bright side.all of the above is all there is left to do. i know of someone very near & dear to me who lives by these very phrases. someone whom i call my HEROsomeone who deserves nothing but the very best in the worlda someone so rare with a heart of pure goldmy thoughts are with you always...as for my momhaihi'll deal with itwhat else can i do right?*switches privacy settings ON*like... maxxxxxxxx 
that double edged sword stabs me again
i fool myself into thinking that i have got my armour on
when i know i don't
if u could know what i know
if u could only see what i see
every waking moment
even in my sleep
its only been days
but perhaps forever more i must wait ...
is my normal reaction to.. most things -_- it was a forwarded invitation to attend this training course meant for exec. secretaries, PAs aka people like your's truly nothing like a reminder of just how mindless a part of my job can be, and of where i truly belong in this mega ass huge organisation - right at the bottom, just above the mail boy hiphip hooray! 2. the annoucement that there is to be no more smoking on the 3rd floor balcony as of 2 weeks from now. to which made bee join me in our 'huh?'s. closely followed by a 'demmit/cibai' 3. yet another forwarded e-mail that i was apparently supposed to receive, although i don't quite see the relevance. but yeah ok... *hits delete* 4. a random funny proposition via sms from Mira "Nurry! Be my amazing race partner?" , to which i said, yeah why not. but still absolutely random. haha on another note. i have decided that i will go to india in november for an exchange friend's wedding. and i have also decided that i am dragging christine & laura chan with me wheeeeeeeee!!! omg the joy :))))
so i've been told
and ok fine. i do realise it too hence...
im writing them down
things that made me go "huh?" this morning
tired on a thursdaywhy?physically exhaustedwith fall out boy on replay all dayan aching backand the image of my bed + my book + my nightlight stuck like a screen blocking out any other thought from entering my brain cavity
ah blissand tonite. i shall give inno fuck itin an hour i willyesssss
literally jaw dropping speechless kinda like whoa
was me
for most of the past 2 days
what started out as a means of office escapism for 2 whole days turned out to be abso-fuckin-lutely awesome
n this is coming from someone who really isnt into all these conference type things *groan*
all this sitting down quietly, listenin to a whole buncha ppl tell u how u should live your life like how they did and hear them brag
boo
but.. but...
this one was different
these women were like bloody superheroes!
through immeasureable adversity, countless doors slammed in their faces, ostracism right down to death threats, they went on
they persisted
they strived
their message was simple
they could do it
so can you
for no one can stop you.. but yourself
u shape ur own destiny
the only question is...
how?
a few new names that have been the cause for my gaping jaw
leilani munter
dr. sunitha krishnan
melissa moon
hannah mckeand
jessica cox
something else i like
http://www.osorhan.com/bigo/index.php
read between the lines
small o
big o
:)
i stumbled across this random person's blog
when i was searching for images today
his thoughts hit more than a few notes
i like
i will read again
http://ssimplethoughtss.blogspot.com/
notice how much goes into the tiny details,
the little tasks
the small conveniences
that we do?
brainless
tedious
tiring
to say the least
but it is what we do
what.. everyone else takes for granted
and what everyone else doesn't want to do
did i really need to go to school for this?
nah
am i proud of what i do?
nah
but its a part of the journey
we all gota start somewhere
and for me.. that somewhere is here
altho i do wonder
do they notice?
my guess is .. they don't
but if and whenever i get there
i will
cos in everything.. its the little details that truly count
on what authority?hahai still find it amusing how people send me stuff for 'my approval' at worki mean yeah.. of course la i'll approve itbut i still think its funny cos really...who died and made me the expert?if they only knew.. that im just as clueless as they arehahaoklai can correct their english lafullstop :P