Nur Zakuan
writing to a non-audience pleases me.
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2 to go fun filled scenes to memorise that iswords, words, wordsdont get me wrong. i like what im doing.im just... stressingwe've got... 7 days till books downgood luck boys1 scene a day, will keep the angry director at bayon another note, pun intended , tonite was awesome with a capital Athanks
credit card debts are the unthinkable
paying off a huge sum just for a growing interest, based on a meager principal is just plain stupid & completely avoidable
even if it means that im compeltely & massively broke this month
sigh
i just got paid yesterday
after doing my necessary bill payments, savings transfers, car loan payments etc etc etc
im left with a grand total of 300 bucks
i rock
best part is
im broke not cos of my own doing
i had to pay upfront using my credit card to purchase multiple flight tickets for some friends who will be visiting in july
yes, they pay me back then
so in may/june, the pauper i am
come july... a rich woman
id rather just be regular
sometimes i wonder why i bother helping people
as of late, all its ever done was to get me into shit
karma...*ohmmmmm
a friend just sent me a stupid text that almost made me paranoid for 5 minsif it were true. i wouldv killed her. shes still alive. hah!on another note.. im in such shitiv been sittin at my cubicle for the past hour 'conversagasming'did u know.. that you can create ur very own custom designed converse kicks?
iv designed 3 in the past hour.... la la lanow my libran self has to decide. and God knows how tough that can be for a person like medecisions, decisions, decisions. its all your fault preppy loving KPP!
no wait.. its daves...... arrrrr
that ghastly classical shakespearan language o how i hate theebut learn to love, i mustbah humbug!the words for the weekendpsychedexcitewhoatiredhungerpsyched againall in all. it was Awesome with a capital A. ending on a high note with castings for our next t4yp production being announced, scripts & rehearsal schedules given out, and spirits on a high :)))just reading thru the script has given me goosebumps. dear Lord save my soul, and those of the 'geng' cos boy oh boy do we have our work cut out for us. but embrace it i shall for this was exactly what i was hoping for when i walked into the auditions. the ultimate UP for me - the fact that i got this one completely on my own. i earned it. and for that, i smile. *fingers crossed - i make it thru 'Hamlet' the book before we stage it.har har. o dictionary, u shall be my new BFFn woohoo for my role. just researching on characterization is enough to keep me lol-ing thru the day.woot!
say never ... never would i have thought i would've turned into... thisah i speak of myself like i am just another inanimate objectah yes, i do like that term - inanimate objectit sounds so.. technicalso... inhumanei have found a sense of peace and strength as of latei have never been , and still am not by any definition of the word - religiousBUT, i do believe that religion and faith are not one and the samei repeat myself... i am not religiousbut.. i am starting to have faithin what, u say?in God & all things good. because good things do happen to good peoplewhen u least expect iti smilei give Thanks
people say things all the timein fact, too much is said most of the timeas much as i do love wordsactions speak with more conviction... and truth on another note, something an old friend said to me last nite did stand out from the usual BS floating around the earth's atmosphereshe told me that my energies and 'chi' are better, lighter, happierand then, someone else echoed her comments just this morning and u know what. they are absolutely correctfrom 'all over the place' to well, whatever this is now point is, it meant something and it made my day more than anything else.this was written on wednesday. its friday today. im still smiling :)