Nur Zakuan
writing to a non-audience pleases me.
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today we started our First rehearsals for our physical theatre piece directed by Helena "I loved you once, I love you now"...yes i know.. EMOto be frank, iv been itching to get started on this piece ever since I heard that we were gona do a physical theatre thing for T4YP. and since the troupe has now been split into a not very proportionate half.. sad, but yes. at least i can say, im really glad that i got cast into this one. very glad :) plus the masks suffocate me. haha. dont tell alexfor one, i havent a clue what physical theatre about but all that's about to change. we have 4 weeks, 6 young people without a clue, 1 new SM and 1 very capable director, who is also a friend. a recipe for .... a journey :) having taken the very first step on this journey today, a mere inch away from the starting line..my only emotion is.... Fearwhat fuels the Fear? everythingbring it on bitch!
omg. opening nite last nite.... was... AWESOME :)))))))))
the audience was crazy, the couldn't stop laughing, the energy was bouncing off the walls and it couldn't have gone any better. sure there were a coupla fuckups, but then again, thats life ainnit?
chris was right.. just relax, have fun n fuck it if something goes wrong. the audience wont know anyways. n they didnt.. i think!
tonite is another show. eeeee, i cant wait! apart from my 20 min camp-out beneath the stage before the show starts.. i cant wait!
i must say though.. i am deeply touched.. and do realise how very fuckin lucky i am, to have all the support from those who mean more than a lot to me. they didn't have to come, they didn't have to text.. but they did. and so from the bottom of my heart, i thank them.
oh god. i think... im addicted.
n to think i waited 8 years to get back on stage.
nur oh nur oh nur.. what were u waiting for?
"roundabout"
the player.. over n out
so we had the 8tv crew come in n shoot 15 minute hamlet in almost full-dress today. ya ok.its ok, so we missed a coupla lines n dropped a coupla props. whatever.up until that time they made me say"i have a quickie on 8tv ... sth sth sth i cant remember..."thats when i lost it* red in face x beribu-ribu kali*on another note. we are 98% done w our tech runs for both 15 min and r&g :)2% more to be done tomorrow. a speed run. then a full-dress... then thats it really.we open in less than 48 hours. holy muthfckin shittttttttttttttttttttttt!will. start.to.panic.real.real.soon.strategy - sleep before panic. yes good idea."nite... zzzzzzzzz" -Ros-
i received a call from a fantastic friend of mine who is travelling Europe just nowso here she is in a hostel in Rome, calling me, whilst i sit herein W2 3L 003 , Cyberjaya.. @ workmight i add, with a sorethroat & a mood to rival a cow about to give birthjust to tell me.. she missed meah, i do love that woman. yes, you shiva.n to imagine i used to make up nicknames for her in highschool n stare daggers at her across our tuition tableproduction week starts tomoro, altho technically our run starts in exactly a weekas of tomorrow, i will be living in klpacwe have rehearsals and tech-runs and full-dress rehearsals every single day (and most nites) and im just...... overwhelmed!BUT in a good waylast nite was an absolutely OFF nite for more than a few of usdistractions alone were enough to throw a bus off a 5 lane highwayread: too bloody loud orchestra in the studio next door, blocking messed up, audience observing warm-ups, lack of focus. but somehow, we pulled thru. and something our director said about channeling our frustrations into good energies and subsequently using that to push ourselves is a good thing... actually made very much sense to me. o wow. wisdom of the highest degree. woot.so fine. bring it on. all of it. music. lights. hunger. exhaustion. by heavens, i charge thee....speak!" there will now be a 15 minute intermission" 
i just have to say thisat lunch i looked at the table behindonly to see a man carry a plate full of curryas in.. JUST the curry - no meat, vege , just the curry sauceon a big ass platelike as if that was his meal for the dayand seated opposite him was a womanwho had just 2 limau kasturis on her plateas if that too were her meal of the dayall i could remember thinking wasfuishgila diet weiu wana eat limau kasturi, eat at least 5 of em lahabis.. gastricweird
i love how jit & greg's photos are upside-down :)perfectly...aptin the rare occasion that someone does read thisim sayin this purely out of obligation.... not
18 - 21 June8:30pm , 3pm (weekends) KLPac, Pentas 2RM25 , RM15 - students, senior citizens & the disabledwe open in 16 dayswe drop our books ... tomorrowwe show our stuff to Joe & Faridah in 4 dayspanic much?faith. focus. fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkko but there will be plenty of that.. the latter i mean ;)
gah gah gah*gasp*3rd of june is merely 3 days away.. including today!3 days till i bid thee farewell.. o script of minetis a scary thought indeedbut a worthy, formidable, realistic challenge indeed4 scenes = 3 down + 1 to godoablethe boys on the other hand, whom in my opinion ... o well.. have approximately 1.5hrs worth of script between them...should start praying... nowactually.. nah, i take that back!they are smart young un's. they can handle it just fineif it were me, id be shittin myself from last weekendits monday nite.. againthe weekdays run into the weekends , that run into weekdays againthe days, the nites come tumbling in. with nothin more than the skinny hands on a clock that separate the 2in the end of it.. it all boils down to time doesnt it?time. age. phases. time. its only contender.. love
i love what i do nowso my time belongs to itand similarlyif thats what i may lovemy time will comeperhaps...