Nur Zakuan
writing to a non-audience pleases me.
August 2007 September 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009
what its like to be happy
do u know what its like to have had something happen that long ago,
and for so much to have happened since then that...
it almost feels like it never happened
or...
that it was something conjured up by my mind
cos nothing that good is ever supposed to happen
not to me anyway
its under the carpet
under the wooden boards
deep underground
underneath them stones
buried in the sand
lest u dig that far
some treasures are never meant to be dug up again
and some...
are nothing but dust
i think too much
most often, about other people
for once
im not gona think
but if i do
it shall be of myself
cos if i don't
who will?
iv reached that point, where everythings changing, or if not yet... will soon
perhaps its the age, or perhaps its just our lives synching
some days i wake up knowing exactly what i want
and others
i know nothing
"i could count myself a king of infinite space, if it not for the fact that i have bad dreams" - hamlet
what is right, and what is wrong nowadays anyways?
bg, im listening to u . n no, i'll never leave u
its in the pits of ur tummythat feeling of truththat same feeling some of us wish we never feltthe same one we calmly ignoreyet ironically, the only one that deserves a listen the mind is cloudythe heart lost in hazehope brings the only lightbut when hope is no morethen the matter is nothingwhere is my hope?she's hiding
i want some ..somedayand so must u..like kids i meanwhoever u may bemy cat twitches in her sleep as she lay in my lapi wonder what shes dreaming ofi wonder what il dream of
an angel in red boxers held out her hand.i grabbed it. she is my light. i have faith. far-fetched it may now seem. but if they can do it.. why can't we?im in
im slipping. again.
its out of grasp.
im outa grasp.
dont make it worse. i beg of you.
im hanging by a finger. don't tread on it.
i might let go.
belayer there is none.
just leave me be.
i will be. as i will be.
do i think i'm kidding, really?and to answer a question i got asked earlier this eveningno thank you. i don't think i'd quite like someiv got more than enough and yet... not quite enoughall at once.
fall ten times treble on that cursed headwhich is mine ownthe day has been epicly long . and even when day turn to night. as the sun went down and the moon doth rise. o lady fortune, for the strumpet that she truly is, did not show. that both the worlds i give to negligencelet come what comes. only i'll be ... aloneif but withal my sole mate in armsthy lady that rhymes with me